I haven't forgotten about this site. Though I am probably going to forget to write. I haven't been feeling too well lately and trying to figure this site out right now is a little too much for me.
Yesterday I posted a bulletin via myspace. I wish I had saved it, but after re-reading it, I could've been a bit more polite. Not that I am sorry that I posted it and saying what I wanted, but I don't want to be portrayed as some bitch. Oh well. Being sick had made me miserable and brewing over a few things. Shit happens. Right?
In the bulletin I had posted about how I was in love with the boy. I am sure he read it. Which was my full intention along with for him to stop talking to me. I can't take going on every day living with the confusion and asking myself questions. I take things the wrong way because of my feelings and that's really not fair to myself. So I openly admitted my feelings about him not because I expected him to feel the same, but because it only scared him away which now leads him not to talk to me. I did what was for the best and I'm content with the outcome. We'll just see how it plays out in the next few days. Especially with his birthday coming up in two days.
As I mentioned, this site is too much for me to figure out right now. I only have two actual friends plus the Uber one, but I have no idea about going to make any. If anyone could help me out, that'd be great. I feel kind of lonely. Haha.
Anyways the cold medicine is getting to my head and I'm completely out of it. So I will try to get more in later tonight or tomorrow. Depending on how I feel and if I can process many thoughts.
xoxo
